Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile This blog is only kept for memories sake. I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard Exits Allure Bloom Crane Denotation Enigmatism Flair Grace Hope Initiation Archives January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Monday, June 30, 2008 Ooooooooooookay. Change of mind. I'll do the blogskins next time. *Yawns* Hullo there. Elearning suck. Like seriously, i rather attend lessons instead. Tsk. Din't managed to complete chemistry in time(By 2.00) but oh well, i struggled through with the help of gohnehneh. Thanks eh(: Oh and Happy birthday azmi(: Anyway, changing blogskin and everything today(Hopefully) and doing project later. SSW concert yesterday was super nice(: The frenchhornist was SUPER good(: Although there's some pitching mistakes. Haha, but overall, they're good. I suddenly got the urge to join a band, and take french horn grades. Haha. But well. I guess i have to wait till i got my piano grade 8 certificate first. Tsk. Okay, i'm going blogskin hunting! Ta peeps:D Saturday, June 28, 2008 Okay, Choonkun tagged me. 1. What's the connection between you and the last person that called you ? Ans - Mummy. She's my mother lah. -.- 2. Do you ever turn your handphone off ? Ans - Yup at night. 3.What happen at 10.00am today ? Ans - Lol, i was sleeping. 4. When did you last cry ? Ans - Not too sure. Something like, 2/3 weeks after band camp? 5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter ? Ans - Bread. 6. What do you want in your life right now ? Ans - To find true love, and good results:D 7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood ? Ans - I'll just walk in the rain. 8. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed ? Ans - Bolster. Lol, all softtoys are MEANIGLESS. 9. What bottom are you wearing now ? Ans - Shorts. 10. What does th nicest test in your inbox say ? Ans - Lol, Dunno. All birthday wishes i kept. 11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated ? Ans - Yes, but which relationship are you talking about? I dont know why, but i use to have wierd moodswings, and started daoing everyone. Oh well, it's okay. I'll live to regret it-.- 12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone ? Ans - Naw. 13. What was the last movie you caught ? Ans - Made of honour. 14. What are you proud of ? Ans - I'm not proud of myself. I'm a failure, so why should i be? 15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say ? Ans - I dont keep old messages. It brings back past memories i dont wish to remember, although all are good memories. 16. What was th last song you sang out loud ? Ans - I have a dream. HA HA. The side effect of cultural night-.- 17. Do you have any nicknames ? What are they ? Ans - Er, some used to call me Jy. 18. What does your last received test message say ? Ans - Lol, i can't remember. I've deleted it away-.- 19. What time you go to bed last night ? Ans - 1.00am 20. Are you currently happy ? Ans - Nope. How can i be? 21. Who gives you best advices ? Ans - (Not in order) Joan, Choonkun, Kelvin. 22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can ? Ans - NO. I dont eat CREAM, it's fattining! 23. Who did you talk on th phone last night ? Ans - Er. Nobody. Everyone was super tired can. 24. Is anything bugging you right now ? Ans - Yup. 25. What/Who was the last thing or person tht made you laugh ? Ans - I think it was Mskalida and MrsV. Haha. But that was yesterday. Lol. 26. Do you wear toe socks? Ans - No. 27. Who was the last person you missed a call from ? Ans - Mummy. 28. Have you ever had your heartbroken ? Ans - Yes, once, severely so. 29. What annoys you most in a person ? Ans - A LOT OF THINGS. Lol. 30. Do you have homework to do now ? Ans - Yes! 31. Have you ever done cocaine ? Ans - NO. 32. What is th colour of your room ? Ans - White with pink and brown cupboards. 33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars ? Ans - Nope. 34. Do you believe in saying "talk in cheap" ? Ans - No. 35. Who was the last person to lay in your bed ? Ans - Me. 36. Who was th last person to hug you ? Ans - Joan chua i think. 37. Did anyone see th last person you hug ? Ans - Er i dont remember-.- 38. Do you have a life ? Ans - Yes? 39. Have you ever thought someone died when they really didn't ? Ans - No? Lol. 40. What is th reason behind your profile song ? Ans - Hah, i dont have a profile song. Lol, but i'm gonna put within temptation's song, Cos, it's Sweet and sad;D 41. Who was th last person you saw in your dreams ? Ans - I dont dream-.- 42. Last time you smiled ? Ans - Yesterday. 43. Have you changed this year ? Ans - Yes. 44. What are you listening to right now ? Ans - Nothing. 45. Are you talking to someone when you're doing this ? Ans - No. 46. Do you walk with your eyes open and closed ? Ans - DUH. 47. Is there a quote you live by ? Ans - No. 48. Do you want someone you can't have ? Ans - Maybe. Dont we always do? 49. Have you ever played an instrument ? Ans - Er, i played flute, Eflat horn, Frenchhorn and piano before. 50. What was theworst idea you've had in this week ? Ans - Cant remember. 51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm ? Ans - Can't remember. 52. Are you happy with your love life right now ? Ans - Dont have one. 53. What song describes your love life ? Ans - Er not sure. 54. Do theperson knows you love him/her ? Ans - Dont think so. AND i wouldnt say LOVE. Like maybe? 55. Who mostly make you laugh ? Ans - Dunno. 56. Do you speak another lauguage other than English ? Ans - Chinese. 57. Are you blond ? Ans - No. 58. What's your middle name? Ans - Dunno. 59. What are you doing tomorrow ? Ans - HOMEWORKS. And xt concert maybe? 60. What do you think you are like ? Ans - SHIT. Haha 61. Who will choose to die with ? Ans - My love(: 62. Where have you been today ? Ans - Home-.- 63. What game do you play often ? Ans - Habbo. DONT GIVE ME THAT FACE! Lol. 64. Who are you missing right now ? Ans - Hm. Nobody in particular. Maybe you? 65. If you were to choose between friends and love, who will you choose ? Ans- I want both. 66. What are you doing right now ? Ans - This STUPID AND LONG quiz. 67. Which primary school are you from ? Ans - Compassvale primary. 68. Name 3 colours that you like . Ans - Pink, white, black! 69. What emotion doyou like to show ? Ans - Dunno. 70. What is life to you ? Ans - Sometimes, painful and meaningless. 71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do ? Ans - Confide in my friends maybe? 72. Who did you last chat with in MSN today ? Ans - Nobody 73. Who do you admire most ? Ans - Dunno. 74. Which month are you born in ? Ans - June 75. How are you feeling right now ? Ans - Bored and tired-.- 76. What is the time now ? Ans - 12.21! GASP! 77. Where are you now ? Ans - Home 78. What colour did you use to dye your hair ? Ans - Once, pink and purple. (Abit only lah-.-) 79. Why are you doing this test ? Ans - Ask ck. 80. What do you do when you're moody ? Ans - Be quiet-.- 81. At which age do you wish to get married ? Ans - 26onwards 82. Who is more important to you? Boyfriend or friends ? Ans - Both. 83. Do you think you have enough confidence ? Ans - No. 84. Who is the person you trust the most ? Ans - Choonkun kel joan marcus 85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain ? Ans - Yes 86. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be ? Ans - Find my true love(: 87. What is your goal for this year ? Ans - Good results and maybe, true love? OH and music also! 88. Do you believe in eternity love ? Ans - Yes 89. What feeling do you love most ? Ans - Being loved by someone who love you most 90. Do you really think it's Global Warming now ? Ans - Duhh 91. What feeling you hate the most ? Ans - Dunno 92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours ? Ans - Yes. 93. Do you believe in God? Ans - Yes. 94. Who cares for you the most ? Ans - Dunno. 95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life ? Ans - Music, Love, Studies and dunno-.- 96. What'll you bring when you fight ? Ans - Dont fight-.- 97. What have you regretted doing in your whole life? Ans - Hmm. Well, it's a secret. 98. What would you feel that no one no longer cares for you? Ans - Sad 99. What if your stead two-timed you? Ans - If he still loves me and likewise, we'll work it out. Breaking is not the solution to every single problem. AND i'll KILL the person! Required to tagged 10 person to do this: - Marcus seet - Joan - Xiaoting - Dalston - Denise - Nigel - Lihua - Miaoying - Lizhen - Lucinda Tuesday, June 24, 2008 Hullo there. Had a hectic and tiring day. Lessons were alright, missrina did NOT catch my hair(Which i feel. I deserve a HUGE round of applause(:) Mrpang is extremely cute;D So i guess it meant bio lessons were quite interesting. Hohum. Oh yes! Mrpang introduced us to Harry yesterday. Oh and i think i fall in love with harry! Hoohuuum. He is sooo. Plastic-like. Hehs. Anyway. there's physics lessons tomorw, and ohpleasegod. Dont let me fall asleep. Lol. Okay, Misskalidah was extremely lame/funny today, although i think i forgotten how funny was she, but oh well. Erm anyway, she forgotten most of the Es student's name. Heehaw. And she called Js. And heck. I tried to look as if my name start with F or something, until she realised i'm still called Jingyi. Lol. Okay so i got called-.- And i think she think i got brainwashed or something, Lol, cos i wasnt answering her questions. Haha. Band was superduper tiring. I got a backache. Ohbother. And the taichi thing was hilarious. Heehaw. And there's cultural night practices AGAIN tomorw! Ohgawwwd. Urgghhh. Okay i think i'll blog more tomorw, cos oh well, geog project. Okay, byebye peepos. Jingyilovesyouall! <3 Saturday, June 21, 2008 Oh seriously. Some people is darn ARRRGH. Instructions have been repeated COUNTLESS times, and hark. * Doesnt even understands. Whatthefark. So farking pissed. Now i have to WAIT again. Motherfarker. Ohgawwwd. I think i'm sounding like joan. Well, a bit-.- Lol. INFLUENCE! Okay NOW my head and throat hurts like whatthefark, AURGH. Shittayeass. Friday, June 20, 2008 I want to cry, but i couldnt cry. Maybe, i dont have any energy left for crying anymore. Seriously, love is just a fancy facade. It'll just lure you in believing how wonderful it is, but you'll have to pay for it afterwards. It'll leave you shattered, broken into pieces and who suffers the conseques? You. It's better to not love at all. Afterall, love is just a illusion made up by the human mind.. Thursday, June 19, 2008 Gemini: You tend to live on the edge sometimes. Many of you believe that you don't deserve success, somehow feeling guilty for it. You may give others too much of yourself sometimes that you lose yourself. You may be prone to suppressing emotions as well. And at times that makes it difficult for you to accept affection and love. Advice: Try doing something for yourself once in a while, in between, doing favors for others. The originator 1's are originals. Coming up with new ideas and executing them is natural. Having things their own way is another trait that gets them as being stubborn and arrogant. 1's are extremely honest and do well to learn some diplomacy skills. They like to take the initiative and are often leaders or bosses, as they like to be the best. Being self-employed is definitely helpful for them. Lessons to learn: Others' ideas might be just as good or better and to stay open minded. Famous 1's: Tom Hanks, Robert Redford, Hulk Hogan, Carol Burnett, Wynona Judd, Nancy Reagan, Raquel Welch Yay thats me. LOL. Tuesday, June 17, 2008 Thank you Daphne, for the pressie:D Haha. I had a HAARRRD time opening it, but i LOVE it a lot:D Thaaaaaanks:D &I'll wear the necklace often:D Thank you Nigel for the super duper sweet pressie:D I'll use the hellokittie keychain:D And i LOVE the soldier+fhorn music box :D Thank you benedict and ian, for the awfully sweet pressie. I'm veryveryvery touch=x But it's oh well, too big. Haha:DDDDDD Thanks guys. I truly truly appreciate it and i'm very very happy:D Love you all loads:D Sunday, June 15, 2008 You know what? I. Am. Going. To. Change. My. Blog. Skin. &OHMAN. I hate typing in chinese. Oh botherrrr. RAWR D: After SOOOOOOO long, i've only typed less than err one paragraph. Tsk. OHYES. Back to my previous subject, I've FINALLY decided to change my blogskin, again-.- Lol. Maybe i'm getting bored with this one. Haha. &I guess i'll go for the black-emo kind. Haha. Totally me right-.- Okay back to the previous previous sunbject. OHMAN. I really hate chinese-.- And for this word, 旅, I spent 15 minutes thinking of it's hanyupinying. Whattheheck lah. It's actually lv. TSKKKKKKKKKKK. Okay i gotta go now. Bye world. I've finally decided. Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love: You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? Your views on education: You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job. The right job for you: You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy. How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. Thursday, June 12, 2008 Had a fantastic day with TP6. We went to escapethemepark cos jolyn has 6 free tickets. Welll, 8 actually. But hoho, whatever-.-&I was verrry GOOD. HEH. I tried all the games except the err rainbow and inverter. And i've tried inverter bfore hokay. &It scare the SHITE out of me and i never had the courage to try it again.&The suprising thing is, that LUCINDASOH was afraid of height. HAHA. Okay no offence but, lucinda just look like the type who's not afraid of anything. Lol. Hokay. We started playing that superman thing. And F-ing hell. It was so freaking hot and we had to lay FLAT on that stupid machine. Damnnnn. &I sat with EUNICELOH(: Hokay so my chest was freaking hurt and well, i guess that's not meant for girls. Hoohum. Than we went haunted house. Damn lah. It was so F-ing darkkk, &LUCINDASOH refused to go in. LOL. So we went in in this order : Joan(BRAVO!), me, Eunice, Jolyn, Lizhen.And i was gripping joan's shoulder and screaming all the way. HAHA. &Eunice made NO noise at all. Wierd-.- but we ended up walking like this : Joan with lizhen at the front, Eunice, me and jolyn at the back. And Eunice was gripping my arm and jolyn was practically hugging me. LOL. F-ing DARK, MISTY, and SCARY. &Joan claimed she went deaf. -.- tsktsk Than i think we went to play a mini rollercoaster. Lol. &I sat with TANLIZHEN. And that nehneh girl claim that she's just screaming for my sake. Not becos it was scary. NEHNEHNEH.&It was actually THRILLING ^^ Than we went to queue up for the car thingy. Queued for quite some time. And the game was actually FUN:D Coooooooool:D Than we went to play viking ship. And i sat with Lizhen lucinda at somewhere in the middle. HOHOHO. It was F-ing FUN! And lucinda started talking to herself. Fwaha. And Lizhen was like consoling her "Lucinda, neverminda lah, the thing over liao" Than we went UPPPP again and DOWN and UPPP and DOWN and UPPP. Lol, you get my point. &Lucinda was SUPER DUPER CUTE:D Oh and i screamed and screamed and screamed and oh well, you get my point-.- Than they went to play the inverter and lu and me went to ride on a stupid plane thingy, for KIDS, HA HA HA.Than we had lunch. Than they went to play the Flipper. &Once again. Me and lu watched. Lol. I just EATEN-.-And than they went to play the rainbow thingy and lu and me went to ride on the feris wheel. WHICH lucinda started being scared at first and than started shaking that damn thing. F-ing hell. I was so afraid we'll drop-.- Which the rest of them join as later on. Afterwards, we started quieing for the water game and we queued up for VERY long, and well, we chatted quite alot about relationship and well. Boys. Lol.And we played the water game and F-ing hell. I kena aimed and i'm wearing WHITE. Stupid sia, and lucinda went to one far end and was enable to go back when the game's over. Heehaw. And there was this guy who went to save her. And we're all like "Hero save beauty" (Translate in chinese) AAAAHA. And she was soooo paiseh. And than we went to sit the Flipper. and this time, Lu and i joined them. It was fun:D And JOAN and LIZHEN claim that my scream's piercing. LOL And i dont know why but, joan kept laughing when i scream LOL. And i was screaming than laughing than screaming than laughing.. haha. Okay heres the PICTURES: Wednesday, June 11, 2008 Name the 20 people you can think of right now. Don't read the questions till you named the 20 people. At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this. 1. Marcus 2. Kelvin 3. Choonkun 4. Joan 5. Jolyn 6. Yunzhen 7. Huimin 8. Brandon 9. Denise 10. Lizhen 11. Eunice 12. Lucinda 13. Miaoying 14. Justina 15. Joshua 16. Weilong 17. Samuel 18. Daphne 19. Hanwei 20. Desmond koh 1.How did you meet 14 pri sch? [JUSTINA] - Sec1e4 Sengkang secondary school 2.What will you do if you don't meet 1? [MARCUS] - I'd probably lose a fantastic kor:D 3.What if 9 [DENISE]and 20[ DESMONDKOH] dated? - LOL. Ask them? 4.Will 6 [YUNZHEN] and 17 [SAMUEL] - LOLLOLLOL. MAYBE? Samuel's a cutie:D, Why not? Heh heh. 5.Describe 3[CHOONKUN] - One of the BEST friend i ever had. (: 6.Is 8 attractive? [BRANDON] - HAHAHA. Ask COLA or DENISE! :DDDDD 7.Decribe 7[HUIMIN] - Sweet girl:D Best junior i ever had:D 8.Know any of 12's family? [LUCINDA] - Oh well. I know her dog-.- 9.What will you do if 10 [LIZHEN] - I'll suffer with her:D She can always count on me:D 10.What language does 15 speak? [JOSHUA] - Chinese and english 11.Who is 9 [DENISE] going out with? - Erm i dont know. **** maybe? Or the owner? hehehhhh (I'm SOOO deadx]) 12.How old is 16 [WEILONG] - 14 and a half! 13.When was the last time you spoke to 13 [MIAOYING] - Quite long alrd. 14.Who is 2 [KELVIN] fav singer/band? - Er some japanese anime or? I dont know. 15.Will you ever like 4[JOAN] - DEFINETLY. SHE's MY GODDIE:D 16.Will you ever date 1?[MARCUS] - Maybe? haha no lah joking:D He's my kor, and he'll always be my kor:D 17.Is 19 single ?[HANWEI] - Ask him lor. 18.What's 18 [DAPHNE]'s full name? - DAPHNE GOH XIN YING 19.Will you ever be in a relationship with 11 [JUSTINA] - Haha maybe 20.What's the school of 3 [CHOONKUN] ? - Skss 21.Where does 6 [YUNZHEN] live? - Hougang 22.Favourite thing about 5 [JOAN] ? - She never fails to make me happy:D 1. Do 2. This 3. If 4. You 5. Want Monday, June 9, 2008 Happy birthday to me(: Okay. This is the WORST birthday ever. And to those who asked, it's becos im only celebrating with some of my friends. Last year was better. And thankyou : Joan, Choonkun, Kelvin, Marcus, Jolyn, Lizhen, Yunzhen, Huimin, Siewhua, Widhiah, Hazimah, Darrel, Justina, Huda, Shermeen, Zhenyan, Menghwee, Weilong, Aaron, Xiaoting.. and i think thats all. Haha. Tell me if i left you out(: Outing with last year clique was fun(: Went to see "Made of honour" and i shall NOT elaborate. -.- Really, it's kinda.. nice. Right GUYS. Lol. Went window shopping afterwards. Here are the picturrres: Oh and i think you should view it from below. It makes more sense than. Haha(: IGNORE the background. LOL. (I'm too lazy to edit-.-) AND I'm ACTUALLY WEARING YELLOW. PEW-.- *Pointpoint* So ugly huh. (: Torn between amusement and 'shock' HAHA That's GOHNEHNEH. A miniature version of albertteoh. HEEHAW Hehs:D Look at the price tag! God i look crap-.- My fav pic(: He look like some.. Oh nevermind. lol Hey LOOK I GOT COUPLE RING! (: HEHEHE KELVIN LAAAAAU. They decided to look retarded and exchange specs. LOL Thats all. I guess. Haha
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay