Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile This blog is only kept for memories sake. I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard Exits Allure Bloom Crane Denotation Enigmatism Flair Grace Hope Initiation Archives January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Thursday, September 27, 2007 Happy 2nd monthsary! <3's English oral was a disasterrrrrrrr. I was stuttering throughout the whole oral. Gosh=x I'm like, so dead? And i read client as colleague. And colleague as client. Sheeesh=x Can't really blame me though, i really was nervous. Went to find mrs yaw after oral. Asked her some question about maths, and gossiped with desiree, choonkun, kelvin, hanwei, and mrs yaw. Lol. School was really boring, and cold (It's raining okays.) and whatever. Lester and hanlin tried to take off their pants underneath their pants during literature lessons. Tsk. Okay, some pictures joan took yesterday: Tuesday, September 25, 2007 Sorry for not updating for so long =x I was busy okaaaaaayy. Anyway, school's as usual today. Mrs V's angryyy. Again. -.- Can't seems to understand why i can't pass my art. Rate my creaitivity? Hah. 0/10. -.- Okay, gtg, tooooddles! Saturday, September 22, 2007 Interview yesterday was a disaster. Okay, not quite a disaster, but we stayed in the libary for an hour yesterday. It's coold. Studying later. Thats all for today, toddles! Joan told me to do this; CHINESE HOROSCOPE : THE YEAR OF THE IRON DRAGON,WISHING YOU PROSPERITY AND GOOD FORTUNE IN THE CHINESE NEW YEAR FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS - DO NOT CHEAT OR IT WON'T WORK AND YOU WILL WISH YOU HADN`T. TAKE 3 MINUTES TRY THIS - IT WILL FREAK YOU OUT. THIS GAME HAS A FUNNY / CREEPY OUTCOME. DO NOT READ AHEAD, JUST DO IT. IT TAKES ABOUT 3 MINUTES - WORTH A TRY 1st. Get PEN and PAPER 2nd. WHEN CHOOSING NAMES, MAKE SURE THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE THAT YOU ACTUALLY KNOW 3rd. GO WITH YOUR FIRST INSTINCTS !!!!! Very important for good results. 4th. SCROLL DOWN ONE LINE AT THE TIME DON`T READ AHEAD otherwise YOU WILL RUIN THE FUN. 1. On a blank sheet of paper, WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT. 2. BESIDE the NUMBERS 1 & 2, WRITE DOWN ANY 2 NUMBERS YOU WANT. DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER? 3. BESIDE the NUMBERS 3 & 7, WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX. CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT 4. WRITE ANYONES NAME (like FRIENDS or FAMILY...) next to 4, 5, & 6. DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID 5................... WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 11 6. Finally, MAKE A WISH ARE YOU READY? 1. 09 2. 06 3. Hanwei 4. Joan 5. Lucinda 6. Marcus 7. Choonkun 8. All i ask of you 9. Wishing you where somehow here again 10. Somewhere over the rainbow 11. Nobody's home 1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found in SPACE 2 - 6 (Ohmygod-.-) 2. THE PERSON IN SPACE 3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE - Hanwei (erm..-.-) 3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in SPACE 7 - Choonkun (OMFG!? I WONT ever like choonkun can-.-) 4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in SPACE 4 - Joan ( Duh!?) 5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO KNOWS YOU VERY WELL - Lucinda ( Yup;D ) 6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS THE YOUR LUCKY STAR - Marcus ( HAHAHAHA Thats funny-.-) 7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE PERSON IN NUMBER 7 - Choonkun ( OMG. He quite like all i ask of you i think?) 8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE PERSON IN 7 - Choonkun ( Naaaaah ) 9. THE 10TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT YOUR MIND - Somewhere over the rainbow ( Naaah ) 10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE - Nobody's home ( Naaaah) 11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR LUCKY NUMBER - 09 ( How did ya know?-.-) TELL THEM BY TAGGING THEM IN THEIR TAGBOARD. IF YOU DO, YOUR WISH WILL COME TRUE. IF YOU FAIL TO, IT WILL BECOME THE OPPOSITE STRANGE HOW IT SEEMS TO WORK. - Choonkun - Kelvin - Rachel - Lizhen - Lucinda - Miaoying Thursday, September 20, 2007 Okay. I'm so damn pissed. I've typed a LONG LONG paragraph and it all disappeared! Spoiled my mood for blogging. URRRRRRRRGH. Okay. Miaoying wanted me to do this: blog keeping rules: 1)each blogger must post these rules first. 2)each blogger start with 8 random facts/habits about themselves 3)bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post their rules, and at the end of your blog, you need to choose 8 people to get tagged, & list their names. 4)don't forget to leave them a comment telling them you're tagged and to read your blog about 8 facts about you. the 8 facts/habit about me: 1. I'm totally in love with music/frenchhorn. 2. I'm in a super duper noisy and hyper class; 2e4. 3. I'm kind of dao usually, and sorry if anyone find it offending. I'm like that. 4. I'm the SL of frenchhorn section, and a lousy one. 5. I LOOOOOOOOVE Chocolates! 6. I LOOOOOOOOOVE TP6! 7. I play the piano; learning grade seven. 8. I HATE HER. Friends to do this quiz: - Joan - Lihua - Nigel - Kelvin - Rachel - Sihui - Huimin - Xuezhen Tuesday, September 18, 2007 I've been really stressed up and busy this few days. Tireeeeeeeed hokayyy. Here are the pics i took during the concert: To Gillian: You wana insult me, fine whatever, see if i care. Don't you ever insult my friend. Get it? And puh-lease lahh. I don't even know you. And please, don't tell me you know me or that'll be the most lame-est joke on earth. And if you don't know me, call me a bitch for what? Unless you know me, you have NO RIGHT to call another person a bitch. Monday, September 17, 2007 To those spamer who spam-ed my blog, If you all think that saying all these will frighten me, puh-lease. You're super damn wrong. Write for all you want, and see if i care. And c'mon lah. If you want to spasm, the least you can do is to put down your name. Let me know you hate me. There's not a need to use my name, and hanwei's name. And i believe, sembawang wind ochestra. I can't believe you stoop soo low till that. C'mon. I dare you to write down your own name. Sunday, September 16, 2007 Was rudely awaken by the vibrating phone and well, i guess i could'nt sleep anymore after that. Sheeeeeeeesh =x I've found out that i really can't slack anymore. EOY's coming and i can't get myself into EOY mood. -.- For saturdays and sundays. Hooookaayy. Start studying at 11! and stop at 3 plus. Concert later, WHAT TO WEARRRRRRRRR? ROOOOOAAARRRRRRRRR. Ivy sent this to me. Lol, i think it's hilarious Before marriage Darling here, darling there After marriage Baling here, baling there Before marriage U DIE, i'll die with u After marriage "U die, up to u. " Before marriage U go anywhere I follow u After marriage U go anywhere, up to u So long married U go anywhere better get lost!! Before wedding u are my heart, u are my love After wedding u get on my nerves. Before wedding u are sweet and kind just like Cinderella After wedding u are worse than godzila Before wedding Roses are red, violets are blue. Likeit or not, I'm stuck with u After wedding Roses are dead, I watch blue. U get on my head, I will sue u Before wedding Every dating he brings u to Shangri-La After wedding U want to go, he says u 'wait-la' Before wedding She looks like Anita Sarawak After wedding Don't know whether 'katak or biawak' Saturday, September 15, 2007 I'm living my life in regrets; Why why why? Why is it that i ALWAYS leave my life in regret? I never seems to acheive what i want. Or like once, opened my big mouth and shattered my dreams. And i just have to brood on it and start hating everyone, and myself. I'll never get what i want. Never. Be it band, studies, music, frenchhorn section, whatever. No. Not once. Look at me. Where did i succed? When?! I hate myself, i hate my life. Friday, September 14, 2007 Jealousy, is never sweet. I've been surfing around for new blogskins and well, saw a few really dorky ones. Okay. I guess i better shut as well, at least they have the ability to make a blogskins rightt. =x Well, i guess i might want something bright, or rather brighter than black this time. =x Something new. And i've yet to find it lahhh. Grrrrrr.. I almost fell sleep in class today. You can't blame me, course the teacher's droning on and on and it's really really boring=x And to the fact that i've slept late yesterday night, you couldn't really blame me.. i suppose. Anyway. I've made a resolution or rather a promise to myself that i'll stop using the computer for every monday and wednesday, and study super damn hard for EOY. And it's torturous facing the computer everyday and not be able to switch it on. -.- So pardon if i haven't be able to update my blog frequently. Band was as normal, was saddening to see that my section's as bad as ever. Sorry for losing my temper anyway. Got the tickets to the concert for this sunday. Awwww.. and they're playing phantom! Had a hard time persuading choonkun to attend the concert with us, and well, we sorta saw a bat in the middle of our conversation. -.- Okay. Guess what happen next? We ran and screamed and ran... Get it? Jealousy, is never sweet. Tuesday, September 11, 2007 The itch is driving me close to insanity; Okay, fine whatever. The title's probably stupid anyway. TSK. And the itch IS really driving me nuts. Ouch. Scratching only makes it better just for a teeeny moment. School's pretty boring as usual. No suprises here. Urrrrrrrghh. HomeEcon's really borrrrrring. -.- Band tomorw. Yay? Hahs. Sunday, September 9, 2007 BLUE IS LOVE 1. Do you like someone? Yeayeayea ;D 2. Do you believe in love at first sight? No. But i believe that love takes time to grow. 3. Have you ever loved someone so much it hurt? Yea, one or maybe two. RED IS ANGER 1. Are you currently mad at someone? Nope. I'm in a good mood todayy. 2. Which of your family members has the worst temper? Daddy. 3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? 4. Is anyone mad at you? Er, i dont know. YELLOW IS SELF DISCOVERY 1. Name? TanJingYi ;D 2. What is your career plan for the future? Ahah, i wanna be a sucessful frenchhorn player, and maybe a conductor? (-.-) 3. What's your main goal in life? Succeed in music. 4. Do you want to have children? Hrumph. I'll ans that qns when i grow up-.- ORANGE IS EXCITEMENT 1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you? Naww. 2. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought? Can somebody pinch me? 3. If you could have anything right now what would it be? I WANT MY OWN FRENCHHORN! ;D GREEN IS OPINION 1. Lower the drinking age? Yeayeayea! 2. Abortion? Definetly, NOT. 3. War? Peace is SOOOO much better. 4. Global Warming? Okay,we're gotta die-.- PURPLE IS Q&A Q: How many beds did you lay in today? One lahh. Q: What color shirt are you wearing? Pink. Q: Name one thing that you do everyday? Complain. Hahs. Q: What website(s) do you visit ? Usually my blog. Q: Do you have plants in your room? Naww. Q: Does anything hurt on your body? Naww. Q: Do you own a camera phone? Er, no phone! PINK IS LAST 1. Last movie watched in cinema? RATATOUILLE :) 2. Song you listened to? ah, english songs. 3. Person you talked/texted on the phone with? Texted-hanwei, called-choonkun GREY IS TODAY 1. What are you doing tonight?Celebrating my bro bday 2. What are you going to eat? Rice lahh 3. Where are you going to be at 2:00a.m? ZZZZZ BLACK IS FOR TOMORROW 1.Tomorrow is? Monday. 2. Are you looking forward to it? Noooo. 3. Are you going to laugh? nope.-.- 4. Who are you going to be with? 2E4 5. Do you want to change that? Yea, i rather be at home. 6. Do you have a crush? erm? 7. Whens your birthday? 9June1993 8. Are you happy with life at the moment? Not really. Omfg. I think Connie Talbot is absolutely fabulous! She's really very very sweeeeeeeeeeeet! And when she sang somewhere over the rainbow, she really made people cry, with her sweet angelic voice. GOSH=x I went teary eyed twice-.- Saturday, September 8, 2007 Okay. I can't get it. Why is it that every country, okay. Not literally every country, but well, Indonesia and Philippine? & They're wanting sabah and sa-something to join them. Instead of Malaya. Gosh=x What's so great about Malaya anyway? Didn't we carry on just fine, after the separation? -.- Okay. Seems like i can't stop remembering the details of the merger. And they just popped into my head just like *snaps fingers* that. Hokay. Now back to the subject i was about to blog. Uh, what's the subject by the way? Gee, i think it slipped out of my mind. Uhh, nevermind than. -.- Band practice yesterday was well, okay i guess. Except for the sectionals. Four months before, i was teaching them the first two bars. Four month later, i'm STILL teaching them these two bars, and yes. No progress at all. I'm getting sick of all these! URGH. Sometimes, you guys made me wonder am i really that useless.. The tinkling of the msn thingy is super damn annoying and it's getting on my nerves. Urgggh. I DO NOT need reminders reminding me that i have one new message or whatsoever. I can see for myself okay? -.- Friday, September 7, 2007 Completed 2/3 of maths homework. Suckerrr. Urgh. I'm going crazy over maths! Not as in i like maths lah. But i'm going crazy doing maths. Urggh. Formulae and formulas! Going outta eat later. Sheeeesh. I'm borrrrrrrred. Thursday, September 6, 2007 Okayokayokay. I'm like, so dead?! I haven't complete ANY homework YET! SHEEEEEEEEESH. Must complete history and maths no matter how tedious and boring it is. I must hang on! -.- Self-declaration? (s there such words at all?Lol) Wednesday, September 5, 2007 Band practice today was really tedious. Played seven night of july. Sectionals for everybody and sec ones included. Was a pain in the ass, as i hafta swap teaching ian, and hazimah. It's not easy hokay. & Now there's a new junior, Chongrui, from trumpet. TSK. Ouch, stomach cramps. One day a girl asked: why do you like me..? why do you love me..? HE answered: I can't tell the reason.. but i really like you.. SHE: you can't even tell me the reason.. how can you say you like me? how can you say you love me? HE: I really don't know the reason,but ican prove that i love you. SHE: Proof? no! i want you totell me the reason. my friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you! HE: ok..ok!! ermm..because you are beautiful, because your voice is sweet, because you are caring, because you are loving, because you are thoughtful, because of your smile, because of your every movements. The girl felt very satisfiedwith his answer. Unfortunately, a few days later, the girl met with an accident and fell into coma. HE then placed a letter by her side, and here is the content: darling, because of your sweet voice that I love you... now can you talk ? no! therefore i cannot love you. because of your care andconcern that i liked you.. now that you cannot show them,therefore i cannot love you. because of your smile, because of your every movements that i love you.. now can you smile ? now can youmove? no, therefore i cannot love you... if love needs a reason, like now,there is no reason for me to love you anymore. does love need a reason ? NO ! therefore, i still love you... and love doesn't need a reason "sometimes the best and the most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, cannot be touched, but can be felt in the heart" love doesn't need a reason... its something you can feel burning inside yourheart and waiting to be explode of love...please.. never ever ask someone why do they love u.. love is nature and without love the world is nothing but a piece of crap.. so everyone, love the world and also love ur loved ones... & I think this is super damn sweet! Tuesday, September 4, 2007 Rise and shine! Okay. Stupid comment -.- It's 12pm and i just said that. Went to zixin's blog, and wow, the songs jaychou played are super nice. Damn emotional. It's nice. Really nice. Lol. How i wished i've watch that show instead of that rat show. -.- And i think violin are super damn nice. Romantic. Yaya, whatever. I WANT TO LEARN VIOLIN!!!!! Just kidding! Haha. How could i learn when i've not even learn frenchhorn? And not complete piano? It's chilly today. Gosh. One might wake up and ask themselves, am i in singapore? or genting? And than realise they still hafta go school. Duh? Singapore of course. Played the piano, done abit of chinese assessment, and well, watched spongebobsquarepants. I think i really should start doing homeworks! URGH. Sorry, about yesterday. Monday, September 3, 2007 Okay. I'm pissed. Very pissed. And i'm ignoring every single one of my friends. Urggh. Whatever. Had a really suckyy day today. Woke up at 7am, and went back to sleep again and woke up at 7.45am. And maths lessons starts at 8.30! And i'm supposed to meet jolyn at 8.15am! Urgh. Was almost late. Maths lessons suck like fucking hell, mrs yaw's droning on and on about some maths formula. Urgh. Almost fell alseep. Hello!? 5 hours luh! Whaddaya expect? Went home after that. Chiong-ed in the rain. Stupid. Probably caught a cold after that. Was late for about 2mins for band practice. Urgh. Pump-ed twenty times after band. Urggggh. Ran in the rain AGAIN! (We're already late, so no choice, RUN!) Ran passed a group of sec ones playing pet rocket and i was splashed when the rockey was fired. ASSSSSSSS. URRRRGGGGH. Was wet AGAIN! Band pratice was okay. I guess. All my solos suck lah. No suprises right? I'm jealous. I really am.. Sunday, September 2, 2007 Okay. I dont know what the heck is happenning to my fucking idiotic computer. URRRRRRRGGGH. *ROAAAARRRRRRS* I can't open the stupid fucking game! -.- Okay. Enough venting my anger on my blog luh-.- All i've done today and yesterday is maths 13.2(i haven't have a clue what to do!) and science(anyhow do-.-) and well, i've revised abit of science. Two chapter. And i'm knocked out. -.- Okay Got to go, toddles peeps! Saturday, September 1, 2007 Went to Junction 8 with Choonkun Joan Marcus Lizhen Hanwei and Kelvin yesterday. And i let down my hair. Ohmygosh. I look terrible, with sunburn and all that. Eeeew gross. After sports day. Was supposed to see Evan almighty but, din't make it to Junction 8 in time. Buullocks. Caught a later show at 6.40pm. Reflections of choonkun and me. Joan being zilian. Haha. Back view of joan and lizhen Me and joan. Lizhen and me. Lizhen, joan, and me. (Say i look sucky! haha) PANDDDDDDDA Me and lizhen. (Say we look sweet!) Lizhen and joan. (Say they look sweeeeet!) Joan and me. Me and lizhen. We look oddly distorted. Haha. Joan and me. Choonkun and me. (He look like a roasted chicken-.-) Kelvin and me. Choonkun and me. Me and marcus. HAHAHA
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay