Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile This blog is only kept for memories sake. I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard Exits Allure Bloom Crane Denotation Enigmatism Flair Grace Hope Initiation Archives January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Thursday, August 30, 2007 A quick update on yesterday's event. WEDNESDAY: Went heartland mall with joan choonkun marcus and hanwei yesterday. Went there to buy teacher day stuffs and my clothes. Lol. Joan accompanied me to this fashion, and we tried out some shirts, and dress. Or rather i tried on a dress. It's really sweeeeet. The dress i mean. & It doesn't look sweet on me lah. -.-. Went to buy teacher day stuffs. Bought a chocolate cake, $28. -.- THURSDAY: TEACHER DAY. Today's teacher's day. Was pretty much fun actually, if you minus all the punching and kicking which made us look like a sense-less fool who lost their head, during PE lessons. Okay, fine. I'm being extremely ridiculous. -.- Celebrated teacher's day for mrs V. Was told to stall her while everyone prepare the suprise. Lol. & I freaked out and asked her "why is the pie the pie, not the tart?" " How is the pie/tart made?" " Mrs v, can you take the stairs instead of the lift, like that can excercise." -.- Let the pics do the talking! Hana family portrait Wednesday, August 29, 2007 Okay. Remind me why i hate elearning day. Oh yeaaa. I remembered, last year's elearning was a complete pain in the ass. Waiting for that idiotic survey to appear, and posting nonsense in the discussion forum, about hashpal's underwear(sorry!) and got scolded by mrsV. Okay whatever. I know better now. -.- Okay, i hafta get back to elearning now. Toddles peeps. Monday, August 27, 2007 A quick update on these few days. Everything's gone in a rush and well, i haven't have the time to update. Lol. SUNDAY: Went sectionals with hanwei, joan and choonkun. Was pretty fun, considering it as a sectional as well, we're not really concentrating in playing our instruments. Weeeell, excluding me of course. Hah! Went Koufu to eat after sectionals, with the three of them, and xiaoting, and weihong. Lol. Was super damn entertaining. Kelvin called choonkun and xiaoting answered the phone, telling him that he called in a coffin shop yadyadayada.. Hahahaha Thats really really super funny! & Xiaoting, i admire you for having such a quick tongue. Hahaha(: Went compass point to meet kelvin and xavier to buy art materials. Took aloot of pics, will upload them when i have it hokay? TODAY: HAPPY ONE MONTH MONTHSARY! Thanks for the rose and the puzzles! & Thats all for today, i'm tired. Todddles! Friday, August 24, 2007 Created a neopets account yesterday. HOOOH. And i'm playing it now. Hahs. And i think i'm being ridiculously lame. -.- I've really got NOTHING to do online okayy. Who tell you lah, always online when i'm not online -.- Now isn't she's a cutieee? Lol. Okay. I might be a teeeny over-dramatic. Or maybe, not. Lol. She IS cute lah. Sort of.. elegant? Lol. Whateverrrrrrrrrrrr. Okay. I'm gonna blog fast cause i wanna start playinnggg! Hanwei you know you very !!!!!!!!!! Refused to give me back my file. TSKKKKKKKK. Nauggghty. Dont understand? Nevermind, I'll explain. Was walking to the LRT station with hanwei ahmah jolyn yunzhen and kamchoo. He snatched my file away from me, and REFUSED TO GIVE ME BACK! >=( Naugghtyy!! Ended up wrestling the file from him, and failed. !!!!!!!!!!!!! Hrrrrrruuuuumpph. Upgraded ben to 3rd horn. He's pretty understanding, GO benedict! You'll be fine. Trust me. Practice hard! COUNTDOWN: 2.5 MORE DAYS! Wednesday, August 22, 2007 Exam's over, let's celebraatee! Oh and just a gentle reminder, there's still EOY. So everyone better buck up right now, and STUDY! Okay, it's alright to rest and slack for just awhile. Awhile only! Geography paper is a real pain in the ass. Urgh. And i've got a bad feeling that i'll fail. Oh shuucks. (I gotta blog more today, & I wont leave till i've blogged till quite long!) Random converstation with marcus: i give up... says: i gt my special power i give up... says: no 1 can beat mi at i give up... says: muhahahaha i give up... says: u noe it is wat?? i give up... says: u noe wat is the secret power?? ♀JINGYI ™ says: LOL ♀JINGYI ™ says: what? i give up... says: my hana evil laugh ♀JINGYI ™ says: !!!LOL!!! i give up... says: (evil laugh) hana hana hana hana He's super damn lame. Lol. Anyway, band today was terrrible. I screwed up ALL my solos, and well, needless to say, sectionals was again, a complete disaster. & I'm super duper tired, and hungrrrryy *ROAAAAR* And i still hafta learn chinese spelling. WHATTHEHELL. Thats all for today. WOW I've blog quite long.(Like real) Okay whatever, TODDLES PEOPLE! COUNTDOWN: 5 MORE DAYS! Tuesday, August 21, 2007 I'm feeling quite disheartened. What do you have? Which we seriously lack? Many people's quite not sastified with some NCO. Disheartened luh. *sigh* Common test today's super damn hard. Die laahh. Hallelujah. Last paper tomorw! Sunday, August 19, 2007 Band seniors are super encouraging. Okay, only SOME band seniors are super encouraging. Thankyou for those encouraging, wise words. I appreciate it, alot. (((((: Common test tomorw. Gosh=xxxxx COUNTDOWN: 8 MORE DAYS! :DDDDD Saturday, August 18, 2007 Okay. I wanna start complaining. So CLOSE YOUR EARS ( EYES)!!! Hahaha My frigging arms are aching! & I still feel abit depressed! =x & Common test's coming soon! & I haven't really revise! & OHMYGOSH, I'm soo damn dead! =x Okay. Finish complaining. Lol. You may re-open your ears(eyes) now. Band yesterday was tiring. Section leaders and the four NCOs had footdrills while everyone's relaxing in the band room. Lucky them. -.- Anyway, sectionals were a complete disaster, AGAIN. WTH. Will my section ever excel? You ask me wheter i would be unhappy. I said no. Why should i be? I've already accepted the fact that i'm not capable enough, and everyone hates me. It's alright. Really. But i want to thank those few people who actually believed in my ability. Thank you. Okay. Taken this from Joan. Mind you, these names are all random. -.- Name ten person to take this quiz & ans the following ques. 1. Hanwei 2. Choon Kun 3. Joan 4. Lihua 5. Yunzhen 6. Miaoying 7. Marcus 8. Jolyn 9. Nigel 10. Winston 11. Who is no.6 having a relationship with?- MIAOYING. Lol. Miaoying!! Who's your boyfriendd? Haha 12. Is no.9 a male or a female?- NIGEL. Male lahh. 13. If no.7 and 10 are together will it be a good thing?- WINSTON AND MARCUS. Omg, that would'nt be a good idea-.- 14. How abt no.8 and 5?- JOLYN AND YUNZHEN. Refer to my previous ans. LOL 15. What is no.2 studying abt?- CHOONKUN. Practically everything i'm studying lah. 16. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?- JOAN. Just not long ago. 17. What kinda music band does no.8 like?- JOLYN. S.H.E 18. Does no.1 have any siblings?-HANWEI. Yupp. 19. Will you woo no.3?- JOAN. Haha, i already did! 20. How abt no.7?- MARCUS. No he's just my gor. 21. Is 4 single? LIHUA. I think so, she's rather attached to her trumpet. Haha 22. whats the surname of no.5?- YUNZHEN. Ngoo. 23. whats the hobby of no.4?- LIHUA. She LOVES music. 24. do no.5 and 9 get along well?- YUNZHEN AND NIGEL. Nope. 25. where is no.2 studying at? CHONNKUN. Sengkangsec. 26. talk something casually abt no.1.- HANWEI. Erm, He's my..... 27. have you ever tried developing feelings for no.8)- JOLYN. Yeayeayea. Haha 28. where does no.9 live at?- NIGEL. I'm not sure. 29. whats colour does no.4 like?- LIHUA. Not sure also. 30. are no.1 and no.4 best friends?- HANWEI AND LIHUA. No, i think 31. does no.7 like no.2?- MARCUS AND CHOONKUN. LOL!!! 32. how do you get to know no.2?- CHOONKUN. Same class, same cca. 33. does no.1 have any pets?- HANWEI. Nope. 34. is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?- MARCUS. LOL!!!! Friday, August 17, 2007 I'm tired. Of everything. Every single bloody thing. I just want everything to stop. I've had enough. Feeling super damn emo these few days. Hrumph. Thankyou Joan, choonkun, hanwei. For consoling me. Love you guys LOADS! >.< Thursday, August 16, 2007 Feeling much better today. Thankyou. For standing by my side. For consoling me. For trying to annoy me even when i told you i dont wanna talk. For telling me that you'll always be there for me. :DDDD Woke up at 4plus in the morning and while, cried. I dont know why but i just feel like crying. Okay. Nevermind. Lessons were kinda fun. PE was super lame. Did the aces day dance using the song, Will You. -.- That was utterly ridiculous! & Reallyy stupid. Okay whatever. Got caught in class today. For passing letters. >.< Mrs Yaw announced to the whole class. They Oooohh-ed and Ahh-ed. Crazy. Was super damn embarrassed!! Okay. Thats all for today. Wednesday, August 15, 2007 Moodswing's really really bad. Sorry to everyone whom i've ignored or what. I really dont want this to happen. Okay gotta mug lit and maths luh,bye peeps. * Dashed dreams Tuesday, August 14, 2007 1) Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirty??- TAKEN! =D 2) Are you happy with that?- Yupp. 3) Have you ever had your heart broken?- Duh. 4) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok?- Nope. 6) Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?- NO. 7) Do you want children?- I'll think about that in the future. 8) How Many?- Refer to my previous ans. 9.) Would you consider adoption?- Refer to my previous ans. 10) If someone liked you right now,would you want them to tell you?- Yes. 11) Do you want someone you can't have?- Nope. 12) Have you fallen in love?- Welllll... erm.. 13) Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?- Yes! 14) Do you believe that you can change for someone?- Not really. 15.) Is it a good day?- Soso 16) Have you ever broken a heartbefore?- Once. 17) Does your ex still have feelings for you?- No ex but .. Anyway, it's no. 18) Do you still have feelings for them?- No. I'm boreeed okayy Been really really reaaaaally busy. And stressed. And depressed. And moodswingggg. GOSH=x There's sooooo many emotion happening at the same time and well, it's a miracle that i've not fainted yet. & I betcha ALOT people will rejoce right? Me dying. Hahs. SATURDAY: Concert was really great. Classical songs and all that. Carmen fantasy. It's nice you know? Violin's really really nice!! HAHAHA Reached there rather early=x and waited an hour for the performance to start. & MR GOHCK kept talking on the phone, and i'm like, shushing him every minute. HAHAHA Serve him right. Went window shopping after the concert (at vivo) and than eat. & I ate for uhm, half an hour? It's fast luh okayyyy. & Went home afterwards. Here's the picture, thankyou yunzhennn dear! SSO AT VIVOCITY! Isn't it nicee??? Gosh so beautiful =xx Yunzhen , me , hanwei , choonkun xD Yunzhen, and me. Us again. Yunzhen and me! SUNDAY: LIT LIT LIT LIT PROJECT!!!!!!!! URRRRRGH! MONDAY: Okay. Monday really stressed me up. I realise that i am a failure. I cant even teach my sec ones. =x =x =x And that matter really left me in shock. REALLY SHOCKING. =x =x =x & it left me in tears. TODAY: Moodswing's really really bad. Sorry sorry sorrry for ignoring you=( I'm really stressed up and kinda depressed. =x Thanks for believing in me anyway. =D Saturday, August 11, 2007 Sorry that i haven't been updating my blog nowadays. I've been real busy you know? Went to cp yesterday. Lit project. Well, it's really better to do it ealier course, we might find out that we haven't really have that time to complete it. Once bitten, twice shy! I know that feeling. Was supposed to meet winston at 2.00pm. But i was late again, and arrived at 2.10pm. Saw xiaoting and yoongluck at cp. Waved to them and rushed off to the libary. Winston was super damn quiet. -.- Waited for choonkun to come. He came at 3.00pm. Damn early ah? Struggled to do the project. Marcus, xavier and kevin came to 'join in the fun' Started making ALOOT of noise in the libary. Went out of the libary to some area which's not the libary. (okay, thats dumb-.-) They started eating. Marcus kept talking about hotdogs, totally ignorant to the fact that I AM A GIRL! Started pranking call people. Lol. Desiree, nicholas,hanlin. Thats all for yesterday. Gosh=x There's ALOOOT of homework not done yet and i'm still going out later.-.- I'm like? Sooo dead. Wednesday, August 8, 2007 National Day Parade went quite well ;DD We played QUITE okay. Lol. The performance in the parade square is LOADS better than the one up in the hall. Our hardwork pays off! WOW. This performance from the strings family's really great! They've a FANTASTIC way of expressing themself. Oops, sorry, back to what happened today. *Sigh* One year ago from today, I'm still a sec one, and well, they annouced the NCOs lastyear's today. One year've passed. Sheeeesh. Time really fly. And soon, the sec threes are gonna step down( SOBS ) and it's gonna be the sec two luh. ;D Good luck to whoever the person is! Some pics from monique and well, the SCIENCE ELMENTZ! Kevin's practicing his part. HAHA. Side view of me. At the libary. F13! ;DD TWIST! We look dumb. HAH Woah kevin, you ahbeng ah? Lol. Choonkun, me. Starrrr. Hey you guys! You're NOT suppose to smile! Only i can smile! Yea, a job done.
But baby, where they knock you down and out Is where you oughta stay