Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading So sick and tired of all the needless beating
Profile This blog is only kept for memories sake. I felt that night, on the stage, incredibly close to everything in the universe, but also extremely alone. I wondered, for the first time in my life, if life was worth all the work it took to live. What exactly made it worth it? What’s so horrible about being dead forever, and not feeling anything, and not even dreaming? What’s so great about feeling and dreaming? — Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close Tagboard Exits Allure Bloom Crane Denotation Enigmatism Flair Grace Hope Initiation Archives January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Friday, April 27, 2007 English paper today was rather okay. I choose a arguementative essay(surprised) And i wrote 596 words. oh shuuucks. They better not minus my mark! To those people who i showed attitude and diao-ed, im sorry. Im not in a good mood today.. And to those who is concerned about me, choonkun, who made me laugh when im not in a good mood.. and marcus who tried to make me smile. and lizhen who asked why im kinda strange today. and to joan who told me not to frown.. to smile. Im sorry i dint smile, but i will.. i promised. i love ya guys! thanks for cheering me up..wheter it's intentional or not, i really appreciate it. =) Went to find mrs V after sch with choonkun .. mrs V was real nice and patient and explained everything to us.. After that, stayed back till 4 for maths 'ssp' with mrs yaw. was real fun! mrs yaw was sooooo bad.. pulled our ears. heeheehes. haha annd my stomach hurts like hell hell hell. ='( Tuesday, April 24, 2007 Sorry that i dint blog for like soo long. But pardon, i dont even think that anyone would read my blog..or let alone VIEWING it. Am trying my best(okay okay! not really best)Am trying all i can to TRY and get myself into examination mood. It aint easy okay? Dont know why but im NOT in a good mood today. URGH. >.< Im TIRED and SICCK of my life.. sometimes,i wonder if i did the right things. i looked back today..maybe, i was wrong. *sigh* Friday, April 20, 2007 It's been ages since i last did something like that. HO! [ ]-helpful [ ]-mature [X ]-immature [X]-arrogant [X]-flirt [X]-act cute in front of girls [ ]-talk nicely to you [ ]-laugh at you when you do something wrong [X]-badmouth you to your friends [ ]-cares you a lot [ ]-handsome [ ]-brave [ ]-tall {175cm & above} [X]-smoke [X]-fierce [ ]-obey the school rules [X]-famous in school [X]-late for school [X]-always hand up homeworks late [ ]-talk back to teacher [ ]-plays electric guitar [ ]-plays piano [ ]-plays drum [ ]-plays violin [ ]-don't know how to play a single instrument [X] -liar [ ] -kind [ ] -willing to pamper you [X] -lazy [ ] -hardworking theeere. thats the types of guys that i dont like!xD One more to go! 1. Do you know where your brother is right now?: He's at tuition now. 2. Last time you hugged someone?: ......?.... 3. What is something you've learned about yourself recently?: Dont knoow. 4. What color is your watch?: my watch was destroyed by me recently 5. Do you like anyone?: uhh.. 6. Are you close to your mom?: shuld be 7. Where do you work?: dont work! 8. What are you listening to right now?: nothing 9.What are you doing 3minutes ago?: replying to yunzhen 10. What color is ur top right now?: black 11. Closest thing to your left?: the wall. 12. What color is your bedroom flooring?: brown 13. Do you have a chair in your room?: duh? yeah of course. 14. Time you were born?: i dont know.. 15. Do you know anyone who is engaged?: nope 16. What's your favorite number?: 9,6,3 17. Do you know someone named Lori?: nope 18. What color is your mom's hair?: black luh 19. Do you have a dog?: nope 20. Do you remember singing any songs as a kid?: uh 21. When was the last time you went swimming?: long long time ago 22. When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings?: just now? 23. when was the last time you talked to your boyfriend?: no bf 24. Do you play an instrument?: piano and frenchhorn=D 25. Do you like fire?: not really, i'll freak out? 26. Are you allergic to anything?: yeah.biird nest 27. When was the last time you cried?: SYF day? 29. Have you ever been to a spa?: no 30. Did you take science all four years of high school?: im still in ma second year. 31. Do you like butterflies?: nope. they under the "creepy-crawlies" 33. What is one thing you miss about your past?: lesser hmwks 34. Have you ever seen the school counsellor?: yeah 35. Have you ever wanted to be a teacher?: NOPE. i still wanna live ya'know? 36. What is one thing you've learned about life?: dont live in regrets. 37. Are you jealous of anyone?: most of the time, yes. 38. Is anyone jealous of you?: no luh 39.Ever been stuck in an elevator?: no 40. What does your mom call you?: my name 41. What does your siblings call you?: jiejie 42. What does you hair look like right now?: uhm? 43. Has a friend ever used you?: yes 44. Has anyone recently told you that they like you?: ..uh? 45. What did you just drank just now?: pepsi twist 46. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?: straight 47. What is your favorite movie?: loads 48. Who was the last person you drove with?: mum 49. What are you looking forward to?: nothing 50. How are you today?: soso lalalalalas. heeey.! Guess where im in noow? Duuh? libary luh . It've been ages since i last went to the libary... hohoho . Cant blog for long now... Must do the bloody hell geog project . And the art project isnt complete!! They decided to just fail it.. I dont wanna fail my arrt! (cus im likke sooo pathetic oredi?) =x Anyway, Science test was just like a 'better,changed' version of the first test.. I dint do that badly i supposed. History test succk. i CANT remember whattheheck to write! omggg. THANKGOD miss sazyrna let us have a half open book test. TSK! Am reasearching for the wadevashittyhell aeroponics and hydroponics thingy. It's likke. so damm boring can? TSK!! Mummy and Daddy gonna attend some dinner later. YAY! HOME ALONE!!! youre like sooo nice. thankyou for everything=D XOXO Thursday, April 19, 2007 Im pissed,and angry cann? Arrrrggh. Hate today. Everything SUCK like whattheheck in class today and Lit test was kinda difficult.! I do hope i wont fail!!!!! Im sooo not keen on failing.. TSK! Anyway, i barely understood what mrsyaw taught today in maths lesson! Im like deproving drastically! OMFG. i CANT aford to fail maths?! SUCKY HELL. Dnt lessons was such a boore. but listening to cexing and lizhen quarrel is kinda fun? hahhaa. I hope she doesnt see this..=x Music lessons up next! We performed today you know? it's damm embarrasing. TSK! I was trying to act as if im invisible but i guess it didnt work cuz im like standing infronnt??? TSKTSK! ahhh...than mrs V was like smiling and shaking her body , trying to hint us not to be that STIFF. Sorrrry mrs V.. it dint work.! hoho. anyway, hiphop teacher is reeeal cool. and his dance moves are reeeall sweeeet. woooohhhooo. Tuesday, April 17, 2007 Shitty day today. Guess how much i've got for my science? 7.5/25 i SUCCK. Im a MORON A DISAPOINTMENT FOR MYSELF AGAIN. BUUULLOCKS. i HAATE myself. Nvm; i'll just hafta work very VERY VERY hard to get *ahem* full marks for the re-test to get everything even. *crosses fingers* Monday, April 16, 2007 Todday is like one of my unluckiest day or what? ARGH. First, i get LOCKED UP from my OWN house for two hours. suuucky hell i SHULD have stayed wth jolyn.. aarrrrrgghhhh..... And i almost slipped and fall just now. Thank my lucky stars i DINT. WTH. Sunday, April 15, 2007 Did my maths homework in the morning . Going to study science later. hohoho. im like soo guai or what? haha. JOKING LUH. =D Friday, April 13, 2007 School today was tiring. =x Slept at nine ytd.. hrrruumph. I was really really tired okay?? Syf is really tiring. And today is FRIDAY THE 13th ANND i have 4 test today. oh sucker. Science was very very difficult.! I totally forgotten whattheheck i've learnt TSK! And history was rather okay.. inference aint that difficult.! pphhheew! =DD CHINESE was BAD BAD BAD. i DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND A BLOODLY SINGLE WORD BUUULOOCKS. Went to find mrs V wth choonkun and jolyn afterschool. Mrs V was reall nice. she re-taught us everything. =DD i LOOOOVE lit!!(minus the acting part okkay?) ahh.. Maths afterwards. was kinda okay actually.. haha anyway, JOLYN SPLASHED WATER AT ME TODAY. o.O I did tried to splashed her but i missed. oh sucker. FUUUCK OFF YOU BITCH. Thursday, April 12, 2007 SYF today was filled with bittersweet memories.. alott of people cried. including mrlun. xD Anyway, we got sliver . Yay? or boo? To tell ya the truth,i was aiming for sliver.. but i wasnt considered happy today , and neither am i sad. TSKTSK. Anyway, dressed up in SYF uni in the morning and went to the band tm at around 7. They started warming up blahblahblah..than mrlun came and he started tuning us.. than he did a run-thru for sunrise annd tears fell. He said it was very nice..hoho. thats greeat. but we dint really play up to standart during syf. suckky hell. we could have got gold.......>.< anyway, was shaking like hell on stage.. made a few mistakes. tsk. and after the performance, the atmosphere is sooo not good. Wednesday, April 11, 2007 SYF tomorw. ohmygosh. ohmygoshh. im soooo not prepared!!!! oh goshhh hellp! my section aint prepared either. shiity hell im sooo afraid i make mistakes tomorw. c'mon jingyi, dont lose your nerves..tsktsk. 77 Ahmad Ibrahim 78 Zhonghua 79 Ang Mo Kio 80 Ngee Ann 81 Canberra 82 Fuhua 83 River Valley Interval 84 Seng Kang 85 Greenridge 86 Cedar Girls 87 Zhenghua 88 Christ Church 89 Unity here are the schools performing tomorw.. alllot of good schs! =(( god bless me and my section and the band >.< and lets hope i wont breakdown tomorow.. primary school syf aint the same luh! in prim sch, my section had 18+ people and now? 5 duuuhh!? and first horn have 7+ people.. and for tears fell, two first, sunrise, ME. sooo not fair. soobs.. i wishh i wish.. =( Sunday, April 8, 2007 phatom of the opera , is nice nice nice nice nice!!!!! ommg i totallly lovee the songs!!! and the movie of course. hoho . anyway, did my lit hmwk,wrote 2and a half page! can you believe it? Thursday, April 5, 2007 updated the info in my blog . Do have a look okay peeps? haha. =D Wednesday, April 4, 2007 Band today was rather okay.. Was kinda stress though. Mrlun was trying to get us in 'syf' mood..sitting up straight,no-smiling,SERIOUS!,playing everything correctly. And the warm-up room really reminds me of primary school syf. *sigh* I was really really afraid that we'll make loads of mistakes,turns out that im like half correct. First part was kinda good for our standart,mrlun said we played the front part quite well. yay. Second part was not not gooood. i guess everyone was rather tired,soo..tsk. you know what? i dont really want to go syf . i dont wanna be another bigg disapointment for myself again. i dont want my section to be pinpointed at after syf. after all,i could only blame myself.. blame myself for not training them well. =( Tuesday, April 3, 2007 Hey peeeps. sorry for not blogging these few days.. there wasnt much time anyway. hoho. Changed my blogskin again..(hello,this is much much nicer okay?) Wadevva luh. But sorry for not completing my blog >.<
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